Self Actualization

I think I've done it.
I think I've found what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. I found something that I love to do, now I just have to go out and do it.

Never have I felt like this without having my feelings depend on some one else and my interaction with them.
I DID THIS. I made myself happy.
I've found my calling.

Maybe I can learn to love life like I never have before, I think I've found what I've been searching for. Looking in the wrong places has lead me so far astray in the past. I finally found a sense of self fulfillment that depends nothing at all on others. It's just me out there, doing everything that I can.

Why am I alone right now

I know I'm not always the best person, but why do I have to be alone through this.

I've been there for people whenever they need me, I do whatever I can to take care of people when they're at their lowest even if I'm in a bad way.

And this happens, and I get left alone.
What am I doing wrong that I can lose so much and feel so terrible and have nobody who wants to be here for me. Or I should say who actually is there, or here, for me.

I love you Jordan, and I will be here for you if you need ANYTHING. I will be there in a heartbeat.

Your father is the inspiration that pushes me to be the best EMT that I can ever be. Through me he will save lives, or at least give them a chance, this much I promise.

I love my family. I really do, yet I sit here alone in my house. I am very happy for the fact that they have people who love them too that are hopefully there to support them through these hard times.

"Sanity and happiness are an impossible combination."- Mark Twain

Where true serenity lies